Wow where has the time went....

It is July already, crazy, although I am excited about the nicer weather, not so excited that September is coming fast. Which means back to work :(, Some days I feel ready, but most of the time I am enjoying being off with the kids.

To update you, the twins are 9 months now. Grayson is 20lbs and is crawling everywhere fast, and pulling himself up on everything. Peyton is 16lbs 12oz and is not doing much, ha. She sits up very well :), can clap her hands, and looks pretty. Sawyer is great, growing so fast (maturing) the things he comes up with is so funny, he makes me laugh everyday. He sings Justin Beiber and I like to move it, I really should put it on You Tube, lol.

This summer we are just doing little trips, camping, zoo, etc. I am really looking forward to taking Sawyer on his first camping trip!!! The twins will stay with my parents for that weekend. Canada Day was a great day! Sawyer and I went to Zwicks, pony rides, face painting, bouncy things, etc. Then we went to my parents for a family BBQ, bon fire, smores, and fireworks.

This weekend, the kids and I went with Aunt Michelle to Zwicks for the Waterfront festival, Sawyer went on his first rides, motorcycles rides, car rides, elephant, bouncy slides, the cobra, and played games. It was a lot of fun, and he really enjoyed himself!

Zzzzz

Sleep is something we all need, something that most of us don't get enough of.... Some need more sleep than others.

I found this info at - sleepdex.org

Infants sleep about 16 hours a day, while teenagers need about 9 hours on average. For most adults, 7 to 8 hours a night appears to be the best amount of sleep, although some people may need as few as 5 hours or as many as 10 hours of sleep each day. There is quite a bit of variation.

Sleep deprivation – even one or two nights – can vastly affect your need for sleep. Unlike many things in life, sleep time is not something that is routinely changed. You can’t get used to a lower amount of sleep just because it fits your schedule. If you try to, it will affect your judgment and reaction time, even if you are not consciously aware of it.

If you routinely fall asleep within 5 minutes of lying down, you probably have severe sleep deprivation or a sleep disorder.

That being said, I am one who needs more sleep... I definitely fall asleep within 5 mins and I get an average of 7 hours sleep a night, mind you that is broken sleep.

I think if you ask most young moms, this is the hardest thing of becoming a new mom, or new mom for a second or third time. It's not just about the 'moms' sleep, it's our babies too. How they fall asleep, not enough sleep, to much sleep, going to bed to late, waking to early, how many naps etc. Like motherhood there is no rule book, it is all what works for you and your family.

I LOVE sleep, unfortunately so does my husband, the difference is I can function on no (or less) sleep, he can't. You just do it, there are daily routines, and things that need to be done, you push through until that glorious hour when you yourself can lay down. Then to be woke up by crying babies, for a soother, for a pat on the back and a ssshhhhhhhhh. When I leave the room I find myself saying "please let me have another hour of sleep" or "please stay asleep" hardly ever happens. My days usually start between 4:30 and 5:00am.

Anyways this post is just to say Good Job moms!!! We carry on everyday, without much needed sleep, sometimes without food, showers (ha) and definitely without putting you and your needs first. We do this hoping it will effect our kids in some way, they will behave better, be smart, strong, happy, and well rounded kids.

I hope everyone has a great night sleep tonight :) (If this post doesn't make sense it is because I am tired, ha.)

Happy Mother's Day

To be a mom.... It is an indescribable feeling, you never know the love you will have for your children until you have them. I never knew there was holes in my heart until they were filled with 3 beautiful children, I am now complete.

I love the baby stage, so small and cuddly, you feel needed.... They way the change and grow so fast, they develop and learn daily. The twins are now 7 months, Grayson is 17 lbs 6oz and is rolling around and around, he is up on all fours rocking back and forth. He will be taking off any day. Peyton is 15 lbs 12 oz and is sitting really well, although does not do anything else, lol. Really hard not to compare your children, when they are the same age :) She is my little diva, will sit and watch Grayson move all around, but she knows if she needs to move, someone will move her, lol.

I have noticed lately how much I really enjoy the 2 yr old stage, mind you this comes with a lot of challenges :) Sawyer is so much fun, the things that he comes up with and out of his mouth... I have no idea where he gets it. The way they can express their likes and dislikes and that they love you! Yesterday Sawyer came into my bed with me and said "Mommy, I missed you, I love you" "Mommy you are my best friend!" Precious!!! Then there are times where he hits, throws things and repeats you at times he shouldn't lol. But everyday he makes me laugh and gives me joy.

Happy Mother's Day!

The moment a child is born, the mother is also born. She never existed before. The woman existed, but the mother, never. A mother is something absolutely new. ~Rajneesh

6 Months!!

Wow 6 months already!!! In a way if feels A LOT longer, this week has felt like a month :(

So to catch up, where to start.... The babies are doing well, a lot better than 6 months ago or even 3 months ago. In the past 6 months they have been in the hospital on IV, on different formulas, different medications, puffers etc. They are gaining weight, Grayson is gaining like crazy!! He is our fattest baby yet! LOL which is great because he was so small at the beginning. In less than a month he gained 2 pounds! Sleep - they are both sleeping through the night, Thank God, and knock on wood :)

Sawyer is also doing great, growing up so fast it is nuts. He is fully trained now, except at night. I still have mixed feelings about this. With a diaper I don't have to worry about where a bathroom is or when outside I did not have to RUN inside. BUT he can't be in a diaper forever I am aware of that. His sleeping is going better, he now wakes around 6, sometimes if we are luck at 6:30 which is so nice.... I feel like that is sleeping in, (except I am up with the babies :( )

I go back to work in less than 6 months :( I also have mixed feelings about that, I wish I could go part time. I don't think I would like to be a stay at home mom, but I also don't know about working full time and not seeing them as much :(

We recently had our Easter Pics done at About Image, they had little chicks and bunnies there, it was great! I will attach a few photos, so cute!

Baby update

Well it has been a while... I feel like I have nothing to write about. So just for an update...

Yesterday the babies had their 4 month needles, they are now 5 months though.

So at 5 months they are doing GREAT! Grayson is 24 1/2 inches and 14 lbs 3 oz he has put a lot of "chunk" on in the last 2 months, he is really looking healthy now. Peyton is 24 inches and 14 lbs, she is also doing really well. They don't cry all day anymore, and are smiling and laughing a lot. They have both rolled over a couple times but are not that interested. Peyton tried Rice Cereal yesterday for the first time, seemed to like it. Today we will try Grayson.

Sawyer is also doing great, he is now 2 1/2 yrs old, Crazy!!! He is the pickiest eater I have ever seen, yes people I am aware that he gets this from me, but honestly so much worse. He is so cute with the babies, always hugging and kissing them, making sure to say good morning and asking if they had a good sleep. But then in he next breath, he pokes them in the eye or hits them, UGH. :(

Not much else new with the Davidson's, dreaming of the summer, when we can go for walks and not bundle so much....

Here are a couple of recent pics.

Twin moms convos

I have another post coming soon..... hopefully. Just came across this video and could not post it. Jaret and I laughed a lot because this is now our life. This conversation happens every time we go out, well the one side anyways...

Hope you enjoy, btw this is just supposed to be funny, not offensive in any way.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tT-lgB_HGEE

I recently heard some quotes from Roseanne Barr, I was reminded how funny she was (is). Here are a few that I personally like,

"There's a lot more to being a woman than being a mother, but there's a hell of a lot more to being a mother than most people suspect. " Roseanne Barr
So true

Experts say you should never hit your children in anger. When is a good time? When you're feeling festive? Roseanne Barr

Excuse the mess but we live here.

Roseanne Barr

and my personal favorite,

"I feel that if the kids are still alive when my husband gets home from work, then hey, I've done my job." Roseanne Barr

Thought I would just share for a laugh.

Update;

As I was watching TV last night I caught an Oprah commercial and it showed Roseanne Barr on her show Monday. Crazy how things like that work, I had not heard/seen anything about Roseanne in years then I find the quotes and now on Oprah.... Thought you might want to know so you can PVR it!!

Sleep

I know sleep is over rated, any mom knows that. But when your 4 month old twins are sleeping better than your 2 1/2 yr old, it gets frustrating. Why doesn't he like sleeping? So if you have any suggestions, please let me know... (I know my comments button doesn't work?, so FB me)

Here is his schedule.... Wake at 5am nap after lunch at 12 ish, he sleeps from 2-3 hours ( I usually wake him after 2 1/2, hoping he will sleep longer in the night). Then he goes to bed at 8pm, he goes to bed at night and for the nap well, he just knows it is the routine and he is out. During the night, he wakes often crying. He cries for mom to come in, and sometimes it is " I need my car, or juice or soother", sometimes he wants me to lay with him. When I do lay with him it only takes a minute, then I tell him I am going to bed, and he is good. (for another hour).

I have had it, I am so tired during the day because I am up probably 5 times with Sawyer (at least) and once to feed Grayson, plus 4 times to put the soother back in :(. Although I am not up for long periods of time, it is still interrupted sleep :(

Sawyer used to go to bed at 7:00pm and he was waking up at 5 ish, wanting to stretch this out we moved his bed time to 8:00pm, this helped for a bit, he was sleeping to 6 or 6:30am So nice!! Now it is worse, I don't know what to do... we tried to move it back to 7:30 ish but no help, he just wakes earlier.....

Suggestions??????

My new hobby

So here it is my new outlet. I have only had a little time to work on them (one day, no sorry one nap, ha) So hopefully they get better from here...

Outlet

My day consists of waking to a crying baby, feeding, changing, putting to sleep, and repeat.. Then also changing, feeding, playing, entertaining, disciplining, Sawyer. I find myself waiting for nap time and then bed time. As soon as the kids are a sleep I go off to sleep, and the same all week, month and so on... I know it seems like I am complaining but I really am not, REALLY.

But I have noticed lately that my only break is when I get a nap, which don't get me wrong, I am very grateful for, but it isn't really a break or time to do something for ME. Which I know all moms forget about the ME time when you have kids.

I need an outlet, Scrapbooking used to be my outlet, but that is near impossible these days. I miss it so much, thankfully my cousin Krista made me 2 scrapbooks!!! One for Grayson's first year and Peyton's as well!!! I was so excited to get this, what a great present, and one I know a lot of effort, time and money were spent on.

So now I ponder what I can do, that doesn't take a lot of time and money..... I will let you know when I find it. It has to be soon though or I may go insane. ha.

Mini photo shoot...

So it is just me and the babies today, and the camera came out!!!!

I know it looks like I took more of Peyton....thats because, I did, ha. Not purposely but there is so many cute hair(head) accessories and she is so photogenic. lol.

well here is a sample.

Twins will be 4 months next week! They are growing fast, last time they were weighed, they were 10 lbs 12 oz (peyton) and 10 lbs 8 oz (grayson). I know within the last 2 weeks they have put on more weight, so things are looking up!!!! Everything gets better around the 4 month mark!

Etsy

I have been doing some online shopping lately, it is quite addictive! I love the website ETSY, it is so neat, it has everything you can imagine. What it is, is a site that people can sell their stuff on, not like their junk stuff, but things they make. So if I made hats, I could start my business and sell them on Etsy. And when you find things you like you can add them to your 'favorites' and then everyday the site choses some other things you may be interested in based on what you have looked at. SOOO dangerous, lol.

These are a few things I have purchased.

this hat is so cute, the flower can be taken off or changed.

MY favorite outfit, expensive but I couldn't pass it up!

I was looking for these baby legs / tights, they were so much cheaper on Etsy!

Now I really have to find some things for Grayson, but little girls are so much more fun to dress up! I think you should check out ETSY for yourself! www.etsy.com

Pleads

How many pleads to you make a day? I woke up a number of times last night and each time I get back into bed, I say "please god, just let him sleep" "please give me another hour", "UGH Just another 30 mins"...... I am not greedy, I mean my pleads are to sleep until 5:30 or please sometimes 6?????

Sawyer has been waking in the nights, wanting to come into mommy's bed. We are nipping that in the bud, so he always cries and says "you cuddle me mommy?" So at 2am I am laying in his bed for a min or two then he is good to go..... most nights!

Grayson still wakes up once in the night, I know it isn't bad at all. BUT your sister sleeps all night, so why can't you? ha. Yes Peyton is doing amazing she is sleeping from 9-6am which is SOOO nice.

Thats all for now..

Gross

Here I am sitting in my living room, playing with the babies, and I look to the side into the mirror.......... UGH. I hate the feeling when you think, 'well I have done pretty good, I mean I was close to 200 pounds 4 months ago, lol'. I fit into my jeans therefore should look close to what i did, I have lost all the baby weight, but its NOT the same. Denial??

I know I don't eat right and I don't exercise, so what did I expect, right? I guess I expected the lack of sleep, lack of food, chasing kids, and not sitting down, might help me out a bit... How can your body be 'pre-pregnancy' weight and not look even remotely close to what it did??? GROSS is what it is.

I know I have carried 3 children (2 at once), but will it go away? Do I just need to try harder, I do believe it is never going to go back, there is so much skin. You twin moms know what I mean, the skin you tuck into your pants, it even has a name, "twin skin"! Great, it has a name!!!

I will leave you with a reminder of the stretch, lol, it helps me to see how big I was.....

Mom's Poem

Okay so the poem didn't work, I will type it out.

Dear Lord, it's such a hectic day

With little time to stop and pray

For life's been anything but calm

Since you called on me to be a mom

Running errands, matching socks

Building dreams with building blocks

Cooking, cleaning, and finding shoes

And other stuff that children lose

Fitting lids on bottled bugs

Wiping tears and giving hugs

A stack of last weeks mail to read

So where's the quiet time I need?

Yet when I steal a minute, Lord

Just at the sink or ironing board

To ask the blessing of Your grace

I see then, in my small one's face

That you have blessed me

All the while

And I stop to kiss

That precious smile

-Author unknown

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!!!

Our Christmas was nice and quiet, Santa was good to everyone... Sawyer got a bike, and the Toy Story, Woody and Jesse dolls, I mean action figures ha!! Here are a couple pics.

Happy New Year everyone. How did you ring in the new year? Hopefully not as sad as mine, I was in bed by 10pm :) Just another night around here. Michelle and Jeff came over to help me with the kids, putting them to bed etc, and Jaret worked until 1am.

I think this year is going to be great! I am off of work for most of it, and the babes are over 3 months so it should be getting a lot better now. The joy of watching them, sit up, stand up, talk and walk!!! Sawyer is 2 and we get to potty train!!! YEAH, not... We have been trying it for a bit now, but no luck, he sits on it because it is fun, but not interested in doing anything in it!

As for me????? who knows, a lot of character building I guess, ha. Jaret and I are going away for a night for Valentines day, this is something we do every year, and hopefully will be able to continue this year.

I must say that Peyton and Grayson are sleeping great! They eat at 9:00pm and go down right after, and they are waking around 5am, (between 4:30 and 5:45am), it is so nice!!!! Not that I did anything to make this happen, they are just good sleepers I guess...

Their routine is coming together, and life is getting easier...

I found this poem that sums up a moms life, I thought it was cute.

Guilt

I am sitting here thinking of something else to write about, something other than my kids..... It's not working. This is my life, they are my life 24/7, I will get to be selfish and do things for me again in about 4 years?? Doesn't matter, I love it! Most of it, this is what I am going to talk about.

I know with parenting comes a lot of guilt.... I never felt this way with my first, but then the twins come. I have a lot of guilt, about the time I don't get to spend with each of them, and lack of time with Sawyer. When Sawyer was a baby, I spend every moment with him and LOVED it! Watched him sleep, played with him, laid on the floor and talked to him, just spent a lot of one on one time. This time around it TOTALLY different, not only did I introduce one baby to him, but two :( so now mommy can't spend all her time with him, but either can daddy.

These babies have had a rough start and are still going through stuff. They cry all the time..... Peyton cries 90% of the day, and when I say cry I mean SCREAMS. Grayson is a little better. They both want to be held all the time and even that doesn't settle them. Sawyer often says "mommy put Peyton DOWN" poor guy.

So there is one guilt of mine, and then there is the fact that I can't spend the time I want with each of the twins, not like I did with one. Basically I try and feed and settle so I can tend to Sawyer or do the dishes, laundry, bottles etc. Then the last few days I have been on the verge of a mini meltdown ;(, I think all the screaming, and holding a baby is getting to me. I know it sounds great to hold a baby all day, but sometimes you want to go to the bathroom, lol, or eat once in the day!

The other day I was talking to my friend Jenny, and she said she wanted to take the babies overnight for me. So we took them to her yesterday and it was their first sleepover!!! Good news is I missed them, and so did Sawyer, he kept asking "mommy where babies?" and whining that he wanted them back. Jenny is an amazing friend who would do anything for us, she is one of the few people I would let have a sleepover with my babies....

We had a day with just Sawyer, we went out for dinner and went visiting. And best of all I slept through the night, I did wake a lot but I didn't get out of bed!!!! So nice! It is amazing how much more time I have.... we are going this morning to pick them up, hopefully she had a good night too! Thank you so much Jenny!!

That is all for now, hopefully I will be able to blog about something else soon.....CHRISTMAS!!

Praise and Thanks!

This was a big week in the Davidson household....

Jaret completed his 10 week training course for Corrections, graduation was yesterday! He did very well, he completed it without any strikes against him, meaning he didn't fail any tests! He is excited to have that behind him and starts work Monday! We are so proud of him! This means that we will have 'Daddy' back in the evenings and overnight (depending on his schedule, but definitely more than he has been). This also means my mom gets to have more time off :) at least doesn't have to do midnights with me anymore!

Which leads me to my next point, of THANKS. I just wanted to say a BIG thanks to everyone who has helped out while Jaret was away. My mom has taken a leave from work to help me out, she has lived at our house while Jaret was away, helping with the babies and housework! My Sister has also helped a lot, has done overnights, evenings and taken time of work to help out aswell, my aunt Donna has also donated her time every Tuesday she does the evening and overnight shift, which has helped a lot and has given my mom a break! I know there has been a lot of other people who have helped in all ways, weather it is giving me a break and helping mom so I can get my hair done, go shopping or sleep, to making meals! Thank you!

I know the help will not end here, but this was the big 10 weeks we were all wondering how we would get though!

Sawyer is sick again :( or still I should say, he has never really got over the cold that he started 8 weeks ago... now he has started a fever and whining again.... Babies have a stuffy/ runny nose, I am really hoping it doesn't get worse. They are REALLY fuzzy lately, they do not want to be put down ;( screaming ALL the time, all day long, it gets pretty frustrating. I am trying to remain positive, so the positives are..... someday I will look back and wish I could hold them all day long, and they do sleep in the night (only getting up once a night!) and that is all I can think of :(

We received the pictures back from Jenna Simpson, they look great!! I will post a few favorites!

Well that is all the update I have for now!

Christmas Spirit

I put my tree up today!!! Pics to come shortly. Sawyer went to the sitters today and the twins decided to sleep at the same time! So I decided (not sure it was a good decision yet) to forgo my sleep and put the Christmas tree up! It looks good, and I am getting into the Christmas Spirit now. I have never put my tree up in November before, but Jaret is not here and my mom is therefore no one tried to talk me into waiting until December. I am waiting for Sawyer to get home and be in aaahhh... ha then start touching and pulling :(

The babies are 7 weeks already??? wow, in a way it feels a lot longer, but for the most part I can't believe they are almost 2 months!!! Crazy! Grayson and Peyton have been going to the Doctors regularly to check on their weights and feeding progress. Yesterday Grayson weighted 8 lbs 14 oz and is 21 1/2 inches long, Peyton weights 9 lbs 4 oz and is 20 1/2 inches long. Both are still on the "special" formula, Nutramigen.... And have been put on Zantex to try again as they are still very fuzzy most of the day :( hopefully it will fix everything, lol.

Off to settle Peyton and once she stops Grayson will start, I think they like the sound of crying/ screaming :)

Happy Halloween

Isn't he the cutest lion you have ever seen??? Okay I am a little bias.