Outlet

My day consists of waking to a crying baby, feeding, changing, putting to sleep, and repeat.. Then also changing, feeding, playing, entertaining, disciplining, Sawyer. I find myself waiting for nap time and then bed time. As soon as the kids are a sleep I go off to sleep, and the same all week, month and so on... I know it seems like I am complaining but I really am not, REALLY.

But I have noticed lately that my only break is when I get a nap, which don't get me wrong, I am very grateful for, but it isn't really a break or time to do something for ME. Which I know all moms forget about the ME time when you have kids.

I need an outlet, Scrapbooking used to be my outlet, but that is near impossible these days. I miss it so much, thankfully my cousin Krista made me 2 scrapbooks!!! One for Grayson's first year and Peyton's as well!!! I was so excited to get this, what a great present, and one I know a lot of effort, time and money were spent on.

So now I ponder what I can do, that doesn't take a lot of time and money..... I will let you know when I find it. It has to be soon though or I may go insane. ha.

Mini photo shoot...

So it is just me and the babies today, and the camera came out!!!!

I know it looks like I took more of Peyton....thats because, I did, ha. Not purposely but there is so many cute hair(head) accessories and she is so photogenic. lol.

well here is a sample.

Twins will be 4 months next week! They are growing fast, last time they were weighed, they were 10 lbs 12 oz (peyton) and 10 lbs 8 oz (grayson). I know within the last 2 weeks they have put on more weight, so things are looking up!!!! Everything gets better around the 4 month mark!

Etsy

I have been doing some online shopping lately, it is quite addictive! I love the website ETSY, it is so neat, it has everything you can imagine. What it is, is a site that people can sell their stuff on, not like their junk stuff, but things they make. So if I made hats, I could start my business and sell them on Etsy. And when you find things you like you can add them to your 'favorites' and then everyday the site choses some other things you may be interested in based on what you have looked at. SOOO dangerous, lol.

These are a few things I have purchased.

this hat is so cute, the flower can be taken off or changed.

MY favorite outfit, expensive but I couldn't pass it up!

I was looking for these baby legs / tights, they were so much cheaper on Etsy!

Now I really have to find some things for Grayson, but little girls are so much more fun to dress up! I think you should check out ETSY for yourself! www.etsy.com

Pleads

How many pleads to you make a day? I woke up a number of times last night and each time I get back into bed, I say "please god, just let him sleep" "please give me another hour", "UGH Just another 30 mins"...... I am not greedy, I mean my pleads are to sleep until 5:30 or please sometimes 6?????

Sawyer has been waking in the nights, wanting to come into mommy's bed. We are nipping that in the bud, so he always cries and says "you cuddle me mommy?" So at 2am I am laying in his bed for a min or two then he is good to go..... most nights!

Grayson still wakes up once in the night, I know it isn't bad at all. BUT your sister sleeps all night, so why can't you? ha. Yes Peyton is doing amazing she is sleeping from 9-6am which is SOOO nice.

Thats all for now..

Gross

Here I am sitting in my living room, playing with the babies, and I look to the side into the mirror.......... UGH. I hate the feeling when you think, 'well I have done pretty good, I mean I was close to 200 pounds 4 months ago, lol'. I fit into my jeans therefore should look close to what i did, I have lost all the baby weight, but its NOT the same. Denial??

I know I don't eat right and I don't exercise, so what did I expect, right? I guess I expected the lack of sleep, lack of food, chasing kids, and not sitting down, might help me out a bit... How can your body be 'pre-pregnancy' weight and not look even remotely close to what it did??? GROSS is what it is.

I know I have carried 3 children (2 at once), but will it go away? Do I just need to try harder, I do believe it is never going to go back, there is so much skin. You twin moms know what I mean, the skin you tuck into your pants, it even has a name, "twin skin"! Great, it has a name!!!

I will leave you with a reminder of the stretch, lol, it helps me to see how big I was.....

Mom's Poem

Okay so the poem didn't work, I will type it out.

Dear Lord, it's such a hectic day

With little time to stop and pray

For life's been anything but calm

Since you called on me to be a mom

Running errands, matching socks

Building dreams with building blocks

Cooking, cleaning, and finding shoes

And other stuff that children lose

Fitting lids on bottled bugs

Wiping tears and giving hugs

A stack of last weeks mail to read

So where's the quiet time I need?

Yet when I steal a minute, Lord

Just at the sink or ironing board

To ask the blessing of Your grace

I see then, in my small one's face

That you have blessed me

All the while

And I stop to kiss

That precious smile

-Author unknown

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!!!

Our Christmas was nice and quiet, Santa was good to everyone... Sawyer got a bike, and the Toy Story, Woody and Jesse dolls, I mean action figures ha!! Here are a couple pics.

Happy New Year everyone. How did you ring in the new year? Hopefully not as sad as mine, I was in bed by 10pm :) Just another night around here. Michelle and Jeff came over to help me with the kids, putting them to bed etc, and Jaret worked until 1am.

I think this year is going to be great! I am off of work for most of it, and the babes are over 3 months so it should be getting a lot better now. The joy of watching them, sit up, stand up, talk and walk!!! Sawyer is 2 and we get to potty train!!! YEAH, not... We have been trying it for a bit now, but no luck, he sits on it because it is fun, but not interested in doing anything in it!

As for me????? who knows, a lot of character building I guess, ha. Jaret and I are going away for a night for Valentines day, this is something we do every year, and hopefully will be able to continue this year.

I must say that Peyton and Grayson are sleeping great! They eat at 9:00pm and go down right after, and they are waking around 5am, (between 4:30 and 5:45am), it is so nice!!!! Not that I did anything to make this happen, they are just good sleepers I guess...

Their routine is coming together, and life is getting easier...

I found this poem that sums up a moms life, I thought it was cute.